[She turns her head to make eye contact, confused.]

I did it to make myself feel better about missing him. I can't do anything "for him". He's dead.

[THEN WHY DID YOU DRINK A GLASS OF STRAIGHT ABSINTHE FOR KATOU, LOTUS?]

Look, I'm all there for enduring physical pain for people, I didn't have one twin fetus reduced for a reason. I would probably lose a leg if it would have kept him definitely alive. Maybe an arm if I could get a robot arm.